So I suppose I have some (as Ricky Ricardo would say) "splainin" to do.
It started about six months or so ago- when I ended my relationship of two-and-a-half years. If curiosity is really killing you, and you simply must know why- it was over drug use (he the user, I was the one who was not O.K. with it). During the entire two year period I overlooked some of my own values to keep this guy- but enough was finally enough. He started "dabbling" in drugs that I was not comfortable with. The way I see it (and I say this because I gave him fair warning that we would be through should he continue with his drug use), was that he chose his escapism over me. I wasn't happy, so I ended it.
Now I find myself here: 22, single, living in Seattle. I have never really "dated" before. I always seem to find myself in some sort of relationship, and I don't know how I got there. The allure of dating has finally caught up to me. I realized, hell, I don't have to settle- by dating, I am going to be able to more accurately see what I want in a future relationship. It is exciting. It is new. It is fresh. And what a better way to start my new life- in my new apartment, just on the outskirts of my college education?
Point being: I am sick of settling for the next best thing... but I don't know how to find (let alone approach) the best thing. This is all part of the mission, I suppose.
In the meantime there are a cast of stable characters (to better represent the dramady my life has become):
Myself... Hopeless Heroine/Repeat offender.
The Ex... Still good friends with- I mean, we shared almost every moment of the past few years together.
The Wifey... A friend with the same namesake as myself, who is one of the only people to jump in and join the shenanigans that have become my dating life.
The Roommate (and her boyfriend/various friends)... Ok, so this is actually my future roommate (will be starting September), but for simplicities sake, we will refer to her in the present tense.
And of course, the setting:
Bars: In different locations- Freemont, Belltown, Ballard, The Ave, Capital Hill...etc
And finally, an assortment of restaurants, pubs, stores, or what ever comes up.
So now the search begins...
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